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Melody seems to be doing much better with her breathing episode. So now she's on to a few new tricks.

Also, I saw the surgeon today. He told be the pathology report was a benign fibrous tumor. He felt that couldn't possibly be right. I am too old, and it was too easy to remove. He will be sending off the findings to some big wigs out east. He and neurologist agreed this was something far different. I await any explanation because...

The surgeon said my story should have been this:

me, age 15. My face all of the sudden goes limp on one side. CAT scan reveals a tumorous mass growing all around my sinuses, around the entire frontal brain and eyes. They deflate my eye, cut out what they can and try to stop the mass from encroaching on my nerves. It would be hard to tell what is bone and what is tumor.

But it didn't happen that way. It waited to appear, waited till I was 31 and was done having my kids. It only grew in the easy regions like sinuses and eye, it poked out through the easily repairable bone to reveal it self long before real HUGE disfiguring damage, or even death could occur.

For me it all makes sense. It wasn't meant to kill me. My mother whose parents died in a fire leaving behind 5 kids wouldn't have to experience the that kind of pain again. YET the tumor didn't just dissolve from our prayers either.

It was there to show to the world that the knowledge of the Lord is filling the earth. That every knee may bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is the Christ. It came to show me the meaning and wonder of how short our lives are and to go, give and live!

I was brought to that mighty edge and faced down the what if's and I feel freedom. Too many things were far too calculated for everything to fall into place by random natural events. I testify of God. There is a God. He opened a new chapter to life. I feel no desire to judge others and to be a know it all (Like I LOVE to be). I feel like my spirit was the thing that had the tumor removed.

Every breath is beautiful and I hope I feel this way forever.

May I never forget this gift as long as I live!!!