my unexpressable nightmare

Well from my last post you can see I thought it was bad but I had no idea.
The indescribable pain that I was about to go through would be the gauntlet that I will forever look back on as the most terrible days of my life. I never imagined I'd ever go through this when I was first diagnosed with the tumor. Everything seem clinical, scheduled, deal able.
I am too tired to write everything now, just know that I testify that the Lord DID NOT ignore me in my screams and tearful pleading. He was there for me. I felt His hands and heard His inspired thoughts. He is real.
He lives my True Heavenly Friend.

The surgery is planned for this week. After what I just went through, I am truly looking forward to the facial degloving and removal of my forehead in one chunk from my cranium so they can remove the tumors, harvest fill bone and a get a metal plate. I know it sounds scary but it's more scary to think about losing your eye and debilitating growth from the tumor breaking through my eyebrow like it did. There is one major risk to my sense of smell. Since last month the tumors have doubled and time is of the essence. We had one blood culture come back with clusters of bacteria and that's what is delaying the process.
If I only had the strength to tell you what I just lived through. I'll save it for later, I need to sleep. Thank you all for your prayers! If I could ask, Please pray for the bacteria to leave and the surgery to be successful.

Happy Father's Day...
For my wonderful husband who never left my side, my 2 Dads and especially for My Father in Heaven.