Effusions of Thought for Future Reference

I woke up yesterday at 5am. The baby cried and he needed his pacifier. As I groggily sat up, I was stunned by gut wrenching searing stabbing pain. I clutched my stomach in dismay as I hobbled over to the bathroom before my bladder got the best of me.
Just as quickly as the pain had come, it was gone, Like a hit and run. I looked over to the mirror the puzzled lady with a skin break out and oily hair was of no help and the vomitous smell of the bathroom soap was a big motivation to quickly go back to bed and tuck all of this in a dusty back corner of my mind.
When I finally got up 3 1/2 hours later, I had a huge head ache.
I informed Tres that I was sick today and that yet I had promised the kids we'd go to the park. He gave me the "It's up to you" face, a kiss, then off to work. I'm not sure what I had expected him to do but I was sure it wasn't that. I sat down to my email.
Something jumped out at me...
It was an email about my poor Uncle Steve who was in the hospital over Christmas, he had to have his gall bladder removed. Poor guy, all that pain! No one wants a Christmas like that.
As the day moved on my thoughts and prayers were with him and yet there was little relief for the head ache.
I finally decided I'd just take the kids to Freestone park despite it all.
But, the kids wanted Ben to come. So I call my parents house, but I'm told Ben is already at Freestone with my sister Bonnie! How Odd!
Well, That was easy.
I also needed to give Sage back the twin's coats and toys. I call her... She is already heading to Freestone as well! What cosmic event was happening at the park today, I wondered.
Very odd.
So we all arrive. Have a good time. Sage's friend was talking about her baby to come and I really felt for her because she was really sick. I could relate, this time last year I felt the same way. After all that, it's hard to think about another child and timing things just right, I do want to have one more down the road, I said. She said she was going to have a natural labor at home too. Wow, she is so brave, I thought. We swapped birthing stories and had a good chat.
Also, Abby decided to go off the top of a tall hill on her bike and baled off at the bottom into some mud, because she felt she was going too fast, but she was ok. She decided to do it again from the middle of the hill now instead. I thought how brave of her to get back on the horse like that. But I guess a few spills here and there in life never deterred me fully from accomplishing the things I love to do, either. She just kept at it slowly getting higher and higher up the hill, realizing that it was ok to go really fast as long as she felt she was still in control by occasionally dragging her feet just a bit. Also sounds like me.

We go home, Tres comes home.
He has a present for me. Apparently he had taken my health inconsideration that day and thought to buy me a fortune telling device, the kind that come in stick form.
2 minutes, 5 minutes, 10 minuets later I sat there, with my hand over my mouth unable to speak.
From the past I have learned that the stick has no regard for your personal feelings.
And the stick, having no personality that I was aware of, told it to me straight as always.
My life wasn't about to change.
It already had changed.
Whether I was aware of what was happening or not. Nothing to rethink.
I looked over at Kaden who was munching happily on his foot. Picked him up,
sat down and enjoyed the 3 of us sitting there.
All the excitement, the timing, the details, and the what ifs melted away. I knew this was all in the Lord's hands and I was willing to follow where ever he led.
So I smiled.